Completely Consumed (Addicted To You, Book Eight) Page 9

  She could see it all over his face, plain as day. He was exhausted.

  Despite the fact that they hadn’t spoken much since the argument, she was worried about him. He’d been up driving for hours and hours. They hadn’t had very many breaks, and it was clearly starting to wear on him.

  And even though she’d had a brief nap or two, she was completely strung out as well. Her mind and her body had been taxed to their limits.

  “Maybe we should stop soon,” Caelyn said, as the traffic slowed further. “It’s getting to be rush hour and the traffic’s only going to get worse.”

  “That’s not a very positive attitude.”

  “You’ve been driving for hours and hours. At least let me take a turn.”

  He gave her a look like she was crazy. “I’m not letting you drive. I saw what you did to your car, remember?”

  “I didn’t do anything. It just broke down.”

  “Sure it did.”

  She rolled her eyes. “Do you plan on just driving straight through to Florida?”

  “Sure.” He checked the time. “It’s only…what…another fourteen or fifteen hours. I can do that standing on my head.”

  “You’re practically falling asleep at the wheel, Elijah.”

  “I just need to stop for coffee. I’m fine.”

  They continued on for another hour or so. Traffic was slowing to a crawl. Caelyn found her own eyes closing, opening and closing, and she was dozing. She’d snap awake periodically to find Elijah staring out at the endless line of cars in front of them.

  She opened her mouth to say something a couple of times and then thought better of it.

  Traffic broke up as they got deeper into Virginia. Elijah stopped at a gas station to fill up and grabbed them both coffees.

  As they were leaving, Caelyn tried to give him twenty dollars.

  “Get that away from me,” he said, refusing to take her money.

  “Fine, I’ll just put it in your glove compartment.”

  “I’ve got plenty of money,” he told her, “and I’m pretty sure you don’t. You should save it for Florida.”

  “I can’t let you keep paying for me.”

  “What were you studying?” he said, as they left the gas station. He handed her a coffee and stretched, his shirt pulling up and revealing a flat, washboard stomach with six-pack abs.

  She tried to avert her gaze but couldn’t help but stare.

  “Hello?” he asked.

  “Huh?”

  “What were you studying at Cambridge? Were you going to be a doctor or something?”

  “I was studying sociology.”

  “What’s the good for?” he said.

  “What does that mean?”

  “Like, what would you do for a job after college?”

  She shrugged and took a small sip of her coffee. It was hot and good. “I don’t know. Supposedly the FBI likes hiring people from that field. Maybe I’ll track serial killers or something.” She smiled to show she was joking.

  “Well, when you get a job with the FBI someday, you can pay me back. But for now, just think of it as a long-term loan.”

  “I can’t—”

  “Hey,” he said softly, putting a hand on her shoulder. “I know I’m not always the easiest person to get along with. Just let me pay for the trip, okay?”

  She nodded slowly, relishing the way his hand felt on her shoulder, glad that they weren’t fighting anymore. She wanted him to stay that way for just a little while longer—and she’d probably have agreed to anything to make him do so. “Okay.”

  “You can always pay it forward,” he said. “Help somebody else out who needs it sometime.”

  A moment later, he pulled his hand away.

  Once they were back in the SUV, Elijah was about to pull out of the parking lot when his cell began buzzing. He impatiently grabbed it from his pant’s pocket and stared at it. He had a look of concern, or maybe anger, on his face. “Damn it,” he muttered. He started furiously texting.

  “Everything okay?” she asked.

  He didn’t respond. He finished texting and then his phone started ringing.

  Elijah’s expression darkened. Finally, after waiting for a few rings, he answered.

  “Yeah.” His tone of voice was different than what she was used to hearing from him—

  deeper, more aggressive. He listened to whatever the person was saying on the other end of the phone. “You know I can’t do that,” he said. “Because.” Pause. “Because I’m done, that’s why.” Another long pause. He was staring down, his eyes distant as he listened to whatever was being said. His jaw flexed and the muscle twitched, like a pulse. “Listen to me,” he said, his voice an intense whisper. “No, listen to me. If I see you again, it’s not going to be pretty. Understand? Just go on back to the rest of the boys and tell them my message. I’m done. Stop calling me, stop texting me, don’t look for me. If you find me, I can guarantee you’ll wish you didn’t.” And then he took the phone away from his ear and hit the end button.

  As they pulled back onto the highway, Caelyn could feel the tension radiating off of Elijah like heat. His whole body gave off a kind of dark, violent energy—and yet it didn’t scare her for some reason.

  She knew that what he was feeling had nothing at all to do with her. Still. She knew better than to ask him what that call had been about.

  After they’d been driving again for a few minutes, his shoulders visibly relaxed.

  He glanced over at her. “I didn’t want you to have to hear that,” he said.

  “It’s okay, I don’t mind,” she told him.

  He smiled. “I doubt the kind of guys you’re used to hanging around have those kinds of conversations.”

  She thought of Jayson and winced inwardly. That conversation was nothing compared to what she’d had to deal with from the guy she’d been hanging around with.

  “I think you have a strange idea about people that I spend time with. You seem to think that everyone who goes to a preppy school is just sheltered and rich and happy. It’s not really like that.”

  “It’s not?” he smirked.

  “A lot of them are, sure,” she admitted, “but some of them are depressed and miserable. Some of them are mean. Some of them are worse than that.”

  “I guess that makes sense,” Elijah said. “But believe me, you would take the nastiest of your bunch and put them in my neck of the woods—they don’t last twenty-four hours.”

  “Maybe not. But you’re not as bad as you seem to think you are, Elijah.”

  “You don’t know me.”

  “I’m starting to know you.”

  That quieted him. He seemed to be thinking awhile. “I told you I was running away from something too,” he said.

  She nodded. “That person on the phone just now—is that who you’re running away from?”

  “Partly. Let’s just say that I fell in with a bad crowd.” He laughed, like this amused him.

  “What’s so funny?”

  “That’s just total bullshit. I didn’t fall in with them. I grew up with them. They were my best friends. One of them is my kid brother.”

  She could see the hurt in his eyes now. It was obvious that he was struggling with his decision as much as she was struggling with her own. “Maybe you and me aren’t as different as you think,” she said.

  “How so?”

  “Everyone you know thinks you’re being a traitor, right?” she asked him.

  He nodded. “Yeah, pretty much.”

  “Well, that’s what everyone’s going to think about me when they realize that I took off, left college to go to Florida. They’re going to think I’m crazy, ungrateful, entitled, whatever.” She looked at Elijah. “But I had to go. It was either leave Boston and give myself a chance to actually live for myself, or stay and just completely lose myself.”

  “Yeah, I suppose that’s how I felt too,” he said. “You know, I can see why you got into Cambridge,” he said. “That’s pretty damn smar
t.”

  “Thanks,” she smiled.

  Over the next couple of hours, they mostly listened to music. Elijah seemed to prefer stuff like the Foo Fighters and Death Cab for Cutie, whereas Caelyn was pretty much into Usher and Rihanna and mainstream pop music. Surprisingly, Elijah wasn’t jerky about it like some boys had been in the past.

  He didn’t make fun of her for her musical tastes. In fact, he happily tuned the radio to a hits station for the better part of an hour.

  As evening started to fall, however, and the sky slowly darkened, Elijah was tiring again and this time, even he couldn’t deny it.

  “I’m not going to make it all the way to Florida,” he said softly, after a long period of relative silence.

  “I didn’t expect you to,” she replied.

  “My eyes are burning, my back is killing me. I need to get out of this car and stretch my legs and…”

  “We need to stop at a hotel for the night,” Caelyn said. She was looking forward to it, actually. Sure, it would have been nice to get to Florida in one straight shot, but it wasn’t worth dying to try and make it. They had continued way past what she thought was reasonable, and it was time to accept defeat.

  Besides, she was still wearing the same outfit from the previous night, and her same old caked on makeup and she felt gross. A bath would be very nice, too.

  “All right, let’s pull off at the next exit,” Elijah said. “Sound good?”

  “Sounds amazing.”

  “I’m just going to stop at the first halfway decent place we see,” he said, “since I don’t really know what’s nearby.”

  “I can check my phone,” she offered.

  But minutes later, they were taking the next off ramp and soon off the exit, they spotted a Holiday Inn Express that looked like a beautiful oasis after everything she’d been through recently.

  “Hopefully, they have some rooms open,” Elijah said, as they pulled in. “The lot doesn’t seem too full.”

  “Should I come in with you?” she asked, as he pulled the car over beside the front entrance.

  “No, let me just run in really quick and see what’s available.”

  “You sure?”

  “Yup.” He hopped out of the SUV, suddenly energetic, and she watched him go inside. She could see his broad back as he walked, and the wind ruffled his hair slightly.

  The butterflies had started up again, and she put a hand on her stomach. What was she feeling, exactly? She wasn’t certain. Elijah was absolutely handsome—was it that simple? Was she physically attracted to him, or was it something else?

  She waited in the car, hoping they wouldn’t tell him the hotel was booked up. But as the minutes went by, she imagined he must be getting rooms for them. She wondered how much it would cost, and if he’d try to once again pay for her.

  When he finally returned to the car and got inside, she looked at him expectantly.

  “Well?” she asked.

  “Well, what?” he replied, driving away from the curb.

  “Did they have any rooms available?”

  “Yeah.” He pulled into a parking spot not far away.

  “So…” she waited for him to explain. “How much do I owe you, Elijah?”

  “Don’t start this mess again,” he said. “Come on, I’m freaking beat. Let’s get up to the room before I collapse and you have to drag me up.”

  His words hit her fully as the got out of the car and started toward the entrance together. “Wait a second,” she said, pulling up short.

  He looked at her. “What?”

  “You said ‘room.’ As in, you got just one room for both of us?”

  He started to smile. “Yeah, I got just one room. Don’t worry, kid—I’m not going to put the moves on you or anything like that. I’ll sleep on the floor if it makes you feel better.”

  She felt her cheeks blushing. “I’m not saying…that….” she stuttered. “I just figured we’d get separate rooms. I mean, we hardly even know each other.”

  He put his duffel bag down and folded his arms across his muscular chest. “Well, let me break the math down for you, Caelyn. It cost me a hundred and thirty bucks for that one room. Do you really want to spend that much, just so you don’t have to worry about me leaving the toilet seat up?”

  “No, I guess not.” She sighed, wiping the hair from her face. “It’s just kind of weird, that’s all. And I need to know that you’ll respect my space and my privacy.”

  He repressed a smile. “Of course I will.”

  “I’m serious, Elijah. I’ve had a rough couple of days.” Suddenly, out of nowhere, tears were threatening.

  As if he sensed that she really was serious, Elijah’s smile softened. His eyes were now much warmer than the previous second. “Hey, I’m serious too,” he said. “I’m not going to mess with you. I’ll sleep on the floor, I really don’t mind. I’ve slept in worse places, I assure you.”

  She nodded. “Thank you.”

  “Come on, let’s get up to the room. I think we’re both wiped at this point,” he said.

  They walked through the warm, well-lit lobby together. The concierge at the front desk smiled and waved at them. “Enjoy your stay,” he said.

  Caelyn waved in return, wondering if that man assumed the two of them were boyfriend and girlfriend like everyone else seemed to be doing.

  Of course he assumes that—it would be strange to think otherwise.

  And what if I actually wanted something to happened between us tonight? Caelyn wondered. Would Elijah still want to sleep on the floor? Does he think of me as just a silly young girl—a kid—or a friend, or something more?

  As usual, she had no answers, only questions and butterflies.

  They were on the second floor of the hotel. He pulled out the keycard for the door, and the little light on the door handle went from red to green and flashed. The door clicked and Elijah opened it, revealing a decent-sized room with two queen beds. “Guess I won’t have to sleep on the floor after all,” he winked, flipping on the lights as he went into the room ahead of her.

  It was cool inside, with the air freshened scent common to a new room that had just been cleaned recently.

  The moment she’d gotten inside, Caelyn dropped her purse and bag to the floor.

  She felt like she’d just come home from war. The bed was already calling her name, but first she needed a nice hot shower.

  Elijah turned on the television and began flipping channels. Now that they were in the hotel room together, alone, it felt suddenly very intimate and real.

  It felt like they were really together.

  She looked at Elijah as the light from the television illuminated his face. He was focused on the TV screen, not noticing her for the time being, and she was able to just look at him.

  Okay, so he’s fucking hot.

  She’d known he was good-looking, clearly, but now that they had stepped out of the car and into a hotel room, something in her awareness had shifted. Elijah was the type of guy that girls would fight to make their boyfriend, compete and scratch and claw to sleep with. He was seriously that hot.

  She was alone in a room with him. And there was a bed in this room. They could lie on the bed together and nobody would ever know.

  Suddenly, she was imagining them on the bed together—his hard body pushed close to her, his strong, muscular arms encircling her, as he leaned in and began softly kissing her.

  She forced herself to break out of the ridiculous fantasy and stop staring.

  How can you even think about kissing Elijah after what Jayson did to you last night? Are you insane?

  Now, the butterflies were going and she felt anxious, like her heart was racing.

  “I’m taking a shower,” she announced, her voice a little too loud.

  He took his gaze off the TV and looked at her quizzically. “Okay. Have fun.”

  She went into the bathroom, shut the door behind her and turned the water on full blast in the tub. Her heart was still beating too fas
t and she could hardly catch her breath.

  Looking at herself in the bathroom mirror, her face was too pale and she looked like a tired old clown with all the dried makeup and the mascara that had run down her cheeks when she’d been crying.

  She felt a strong need to tear off her clothes. They stink, she thought. She’d been wearing them for a day and a half and she’d gone over Jayson’s wearing the outfit. She’d been dumb enough to want to dress sexy for him, never realizing what that might mean.

  Never considering that it might lead where it led.

  Caelyn pulled off her top and then stepped out of her skirt as the steam started to fill the room. The heat was good. The heat was cleansing. She wasn’t wearing panties because Jayson had ripped them off during the struggle.

  Now, looking at her own naked body, she was forced to see the bruises on her upper arm from where he’d grabbed her, the scratch on her belly, another large yellowing bruise on her thigh, the rawness on her knee.

  There were other bruises and scrapes, too. Some smaller, some larger.

  He beat me up, she realized. He beat me up and raped me.

  The thought was loud in her head—almost a scream. Caelyn felt her self-control slipping away. Images from last night were flooding back in now, as if stripping off her clothes had also stripped away the final layers of armor that had protected her from the worst of the memories.

  She saw Jason’s face close up, leering at her as he forced her down on the couch.

  “Don’t fight it,” he warned, his voice hot in her ear.

  Caelyn stepped into the scalding shower and began furiously lathering a washcloth with soap, and then scrubbing her body from head to toe. She spent a lot of time on her face because of the makeup, but she spent even more time on her breasts and between her legs.

  It only occurred to her that she was sobbing when she came out of the fog of memory and heard herself, as if from a distance.

  I’m crying, she thought, and stopped instantly.

  The memories faded, like a signal going dead. Somehow, she pushed it back.

  Pushed everything down again.

  The water had begun cooling, as she’d been standing in the shower scrubbing for quite awhile. She wasn’t even sure how long she’d been in there, but it must have been long enough to concern Elijah.